FIL is suppose to have his back surgery this Thursday.  So, his situation is the spine problem along with the Alzheimers.  Today he wanted blank checks & tried to wire money somewhere...this alzheimers business is just too real and scary.  Same routine & the customary "101 trips to save the day"...figure out what he's done this time...  Its like picking up after a two year old or a new puppy only this stuff is serious...I can't tell you how sad it gets and how upsetting because you are filled with anguish, mortification that life can get this unfair to people.. Simultaneously, I realize, that he would be better off in a nursing home. 

I have to believe that God has a reason for me being here.  I really don't know how I've survived almost a year of this!   

When I need strength I summons it from deep within me. It's there even if we have to miraculously dig it out.  I realized long ago that we are all stronger & more resilent than we think.  It sometimes takes a major catastrophe to bring out the toughness in us.  I've had several of these catastrophe's...so I'm beginning to know straight away that I can get through it all.  Perhaps at 35, this is wisdom showing its coy face.  

It isn’t a wrinkle…it is wisdom

wriggling its way in