FIL is not having the back surgery.  The Dr. called this morning to tell us to postpone.  Nothing like giving us advanced notice.  The operation is scheduled for tomorrow!   Apparently, FIL did not do well on the stress test taken several weeks ago and they want him to see a cardiologist pronto.  I don't know the complete specifics yet.  Will write more later...  but leave you all with this thought...in the dead of winter...remembering a slice of summer...

A Day To Save

Misty breeze upon my face
Sand cushioning these bones
Sandals swinging from one hand
As I watch
The seagulls land and pose
The ocean calling us ashore
Via the sound of lapping waves
I find driftwood as a souveneir

And a smile for my face
If I could capture but one day
To save for winters woes
I'd take this one out and feel again
Warm sand between my toes.

Crescent Beach, Cape Elizabeth, ME  1999

 

FIL is suppose to have his back surgery this Thursday.  So, his situation is the spine problem along with the Alzheimers.  Today he wanted blank checks & tried to wire money somewhere...this alzheimers business is just too real and scary.  Same routine & the customary "101 trips to save the day"...figure out what he's done this time...  Its like picking up after a two year old or a new puppy only this stuff is serious...I can't tell you how sad it gets and how upsetting because you are filled with anguish, mortification that life can get this unfair to people.. Simultaneously, I realize, that he would be better off in a nursing home. 

I have to believe that God has a reason for me being here.  I really don't know how I've survived almost a year of this!   

When I need strength I summons it from deep within me. It's there even if we have to miraculously dig it out.  I realized long ago that we are all stronger & more resilent than we think.  It sometimes takes a major catastrophe to bring out the toughness in us.  I've had several of these catastrophe's...so I'm beginning to know straight away that I can get through it all.  Perhaps at 35, this is wisdom showing its coy face.  

It isn’t a wrinkle…it is wisdom

wriggling its way in

 

Tonight I showed an apartment to a potential tenant.  After viewing the apartment and waving goodbye she realized she locked her keys in the car.  I walked home as she was parked behind me.   Advice to self:  Quit wearing clogs in the middle of winter.  It is way too dangerous on icy sidewalks!   Good News:  She took the apartment! 

Favorite quotes for the day

If you judge people, you have no time to love them.
Mother Teresa 

I've learned from experience that the greater part of our happiness or misery depends on our dispositions and not on our circumstances.
Martha Washington

The longest journey of any person is the journey inward.
Author Unknown

There is nothing in which people more betray their character than in what they laugh at.
Johann Wolfgang von Goethe

Without education, we are in a horrible and deadly danger of taking educated people seriously.
G.K. Chesterton

Life is not an assembly line.   It sure would be simpler if we were handed a husband/wife, 2 children, a new SUV, a Harvard education, 1 get out of jail free card and tickets to Disney World !  Reality Check!   Oh, and I want a CHANCE card too....

GS...GET BLOGGING!!!!  THE WORLD IS MISSING OUT ON YOUR INCREDIBLE, INSIGHTFUL PROSE!! 

"I once cried because I had no shoes until I met a man that had no class." - George Sessum

"Do not adjust your mind, there is a fault in reality." - Robert Dunn

""Learn to walk with kings but never lose the common touch" - Trent Adams

"A skunk by any other name, still stinks the same." - Tigger

"Better to set sail for India and discover America, than to never set sail at all." - Jeffrey Henning

Thanks to these Bloggers for the Quotes!  They are very good!