Monday, February 16, 2004
Lessons.... Life is all about learning lessons. Some of us learn, some of us make mistakes over and over... In my case? You'll have to make your own judgment call on that...
DREAM JOB...
I had a dream job once. One that paid me alot of money and kept me in designer suits and hundred dollar pumps. It did not fulfill me. It got to where I was asking myself, "Is this it?" I didn't feel much better about life than when I was eating macaroni and margarine because it was the only thing in the house to eat... I drove the long, long commute into a city that never quite fit me right. I started questioning who's life I was living at thirty thousand feet, starring down at the billowing clouds headed to someplace where I'd only be touring the halls of the hotel board room wing. I did what was expected of me. It didn't matter that I did it well, paid my dues or made the cut.
ONE YEAR LATER...
Be careful what you wish for! I opted out of corporate America not because I got the guts to bust loose but because family needed us more than I needed my career. Still it felt good to walk away from it; wash my hands of executive city.
I started my own business just last month! Sure its going slow but the unbelievable thing is, it is going! Today when I talked with a customer on the phone I looked at my weekly planner and said, "I can't start that job until Wednesday." He said, "No problem. I'll drop the unit off anyway." When I got off the phone I sat still for a full minute as I realized that I really am calling my own shots. In a flailing economy I am opening up my own business. I am either nuts or on the edge.
Posted at 10:13 pm by
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When I was younger there was very little in life that couldn't be cured by a contemplative walk through the forest. In the deep woods I could relax and let nature envelope and calm me. During these walks I found ways to better deal with my problems. It is the same for me today.
When I need its breath
I inhale it in
From a fallen log
The world can spin
All my troubles away
When I long for peace
I find it here
On a carpet of moss
In the forest where
Calmness always finds me
When I must take cover
Yet still need space
It is here I walk
And here I place
My trust in its restoring power
TMK
Posted at 09:29 pm by
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Sunday, February 15, 2004
Seventeen Again? Maybe I'll Drop By...
I was talking with a friend the other day about first love. How many of you remember it clearly? I fell head over heels in love at seventeen. Love at first site, no doubt about it. But, who could resist a smile like his? Or, eyes the color of the bluest sky? And, how he always made me laugh and just feel good about being alive? I can remember the first time he called me...when he gave me his class ring to wear, the day after we started dating and him first holding my hand in school...
Time affords us the good sense to forget the bad memories if we choose! Isn't that terrific? I mean, we did break up and our relationship was riddled with problems... But, who cares now? I'd rather remember the way he chased me around the mustang he was restoring...or, the way he used to whisper in my ear to get my attention.. Yeh, I'd visit 17 again for 10 or 15 minutes...
As life goes thrashing through its paces, sometimes its nice to look back & reflect on the good stuff..those things people or life can't take from you like memories. Matters of the heart are truly the only things that count in life....at 17 that reasoning was crystal clear.
When I read the blogs of 13-25 year olds I try to read with an open heart & mind... to view the world as they might; with fresh new eyes that haven't been tainted. I love reading all the emotions they just haven't learned how to stuff inside and hide or justify.... I will
try to remember this and tread lightly when my own daughter turns 17.
Quote written while I was visiting.. Asheville, NC <sitting next to Thomas Wolfe's house after the fire of 1998..feeling pretty down because I'd been looking forward to touring it...>
"There is nowhere on this dirt packed earth that I fail to find a few words of inspiration or mortification to strike at with this mighty pen. Give me an airplane, a bus or trickling stream of water and, from my vantage point, I will find the prose." TMK
Posted at 09:50 pm by
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Friday, February 13, 2004
Small town, not much gainful employment here unless I create it.. so that is what I did! I opened my own business! Scary this owning your own company. No longer can I blame problems with the job on the owner! Going to go practice guitar with some awesome friends of mine tonight. Music is such a passion for me. I'm never happier than when I'm doing something involving music.
Posted at 02:54 pm by
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Snowing again! Everyone I know is so damned frustrated with the snow piled up in the corner of parking lots! I watch as the town trucks piled high with snow drive towards the country. I envy that snow headed somewhere quiet...
I don't mind the snow. It makes me feel protected, somehow it softens this vane world. Mother nature controls this time of year and I am willing to let her rip up the pavement and smudge our perfect landscapes. Winter should serve as a reminder that we cannot control the world around us. There are powers greater than ourselves at work here. We are not boss here only active participants.
Posted at 09:34 am by
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Wednesday, February 11, 2004
Penned this simple poem while waiting at the end of my driveway as snow swirled around my head. It reminded me of when I was a kid and used to lift my head to the sky and stick out my tongue to catch flakes. I wonder how bad snow is to eat? Does any science fanatic have this information?
Snowflake
Falling from above
Snowflake
Landing on my glove
Snowflake
Signifies our love
Fresh and new
Like nothing else
Snowflake
Snowflake
Please
Don't Melt.
T.M.K
Posted at 10:44 pm by
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